Mayday

I spent this afternoon clearing out my desk and drawers - more to go as I haven't cleared out the junk from my cupboard yet. Anyway, I have found items which I don't remember, and they are... well reminiscent of my past. Letters, cards and well-wishes from friends, faded photographs, movie ticket stubs and concert tickets. A lot of people have left their footprints in my life, and some move on to be strangers, some drift in and out, some are faraway and yet we can always pick up from where we left, and I am glad that I have left a lot of things behind me, while cherishing what I have. (Anj and Indu, you girls swore that you love me, I have proof now! Hehe.)

I found my old discman. It is now officially dead, but it served me very well during my JC days. I used to plug in my earphones when I was rushing tutorials last minute at the class bench. It has accompanied me throughout many silent days and nights on bus 74. When I opened it, a CD was inside.


It's Mayday's 人生海海.

I took it out, placed into my laptop CD drive, and blasted the music at maximum volume.

I particularly love this line a lot from the song:

就算是整个世界把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定

(Translation: Even if the entire world has abandoned me
At least I decide on my happiness and sadness)

I had this song on repeat mode throughout the nights, during my lowest point when I was 19. Too many things happened that year, and I felt down, and heading downwards.

If the entire world turns it back on me, I'll still have my dignity, and the choice to decide what my mood should be.

No one can take that choice away from me.